When I Pushed Too Far
This video belongs on this page for a very simple reason: one of the biggest reasons I chose to become fully open about my story was that I do not want other people to repeat the same fundamental mistakes I made in the first ten years after my diagnosis.
For a long time, the fact that I could keep going made me believe I should keep going. From the outside, that looked strong. In reality, it delayed important adjustments, made me push far too hard, and kept me from listening properly to what had actually changed.
That is why this video matters here. It is not just another piece of content. It is a clear warning from my own story: just because you can keep going, does not mean you should.
Why this page exists
This story was originally written for a very simple reason: I got tired of trying to compress a long and complicated life into short interviews.
The reality is that living with Multiple Sclerosis does not fit neatly into headlines, short newspaper quotes or simplified summaries. The story is too long for that. Too layered. Too human.
So instead of repeating fragments of it again and again, I wrote the full version once.
That is why this page matters. Not because it is optimized. Not because it is polished. But because it is complete.
What kind of page this is — and what it is not
This is not the structured version of my work. It is not the “system page” version. It is not the quick-start version.
If you want the shorter, more practical or more refined version of these ideas, those pages already exist elsewhere on this site.
This page is the deeper source material — the long story behind everything else.
- It is personal.
- It is detailed.
- It is sometimes uncomfortable.
- It is intentionally left raw.
That is not a weakness. It is the whole point.
Listen or read — your choice
Choose the format that fits you best: full text or full-length audio.
English version
Read or listen to the full story in English.
Norwegian version
Les eller hør hele historien på norsk.
How to approach this story
There are really two ways to use this page.
1. You want the full narrative
Then start reading — or listening — from beginning to end. This is the one place where the entire arc is kept together.
2. You want practical tools
Then this may not be the best place to start. In that case, the structured pages on MSWarrior.no will probably serve you much better.
This page is not designed for fast consumption. It is designed for depth, continuity and context.
How this connects to the rest of MS Warrior
Everything else on this site builds on what is described in this story. The system pages are the refined version. This is the raw version.
If you want the more structured version of the same ideas, start here:
- The MS Warrior Operating System – the wider framework behind structure, routines and long-term stability.
- The MS Warrior Cognitive Energy System – how fatigue, focus and cognitive load actually behave in daily life.
- The MS Warrior Emergency Mode – what to do when the system breaks down.
- The MS Warrior Social Protocol – how to handle people, plans and social unpredictability without paying too high a price.
- The MS Warrior Digital Hygiene System – how to reduce input and protect mental energy in a noisy world.
Why this story is still worth keeping exactly as it is
You may notice that this story does not look or sound exactly like the rest of the site. That is intentional.
If it were rewritten to sound more polished, more compressed or more “on brand,” it would lose the thing that makes it valuable in the first place: it would stop being the complete story.
That is why it has been kept in its own form. Not because it is unfinished — but because it would become less true if it were rewritten to behave like everything else.
Where to go next
If you want the full story, keep going into the English or Norwegian version. If you want shorter, more focused or more practical content, these are the best next stops:
- Start Here – the best entry point into the wider MS Warrior universe.
- The MS Warrior Podcast – long-form reflections in English.
- Roing, mestring og livet med MS – the Norwegian podcast.
- Row4MS on YouTube – the visual layer of the same project.
- The MS Warrior Concepts – definitions of the key ideas and systems used across the site.
Final note
If you are looking for a perfect story, this is not it.
If you are looking for an honest one, this is where it starts.